Family

 It seems I spent the better part of April driving back and forth from home to my hometown of origin. Life is happening, and while much of it was full of drama and anxiety, some small positives shone through. My mom is an unshakeable force of calm and sweetness. My relationship to several of my siblings was strengthened and renewed. I'm learning to appreciate the gift that is mental health as I witness two  family members losing their battle to keep it. 

I did take a few walks with my sister and the lovely Rhona, and we even brought mom to the Big Flats town park to take advantage of some lovely spring weather.

Exploring our childhood playground - the wilds of Cutler Creek (pronounced Crick) 

Rhona beckoning us to explore further.

Fetch!

It's 4 pm and I just returned to my peaceful and lovely home. I am emotionally and mentally exhausted; teary and fretful of coming developments, but determined to continue on and live my life while jumping in to help as needs arise.  I showered, poured myself a huge jar of lime seltzer to rehydrate, and I plan to catch up on sleep as my mind allows. 

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  1. MargaretMay 2, 2022 at 8:08 PM

    Oh, what a journey you're on! I'm so glad that you could seek out some positives. They are hard to find sometimes. It's special to be home in our own places. I won't tell you not to fret because I HATE it when people say that to me. You sound like you have a balanced attitude toward the situation--live your life and enjoy what you can, while being prepared to help out when needed. It's all any of us can do. xoxo

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